Friday, February 20, 2015

No rising sun confession, dear. Only a restless night I'll nurse for years.

مرحبا
The title of this post comes from the song Fire's Highway by Japandroids; it sorta rhymes but I think it's the sibilants that gets me. It's the second time I've followed them. The first time was a little hurtful, but I got over it, and this time round it was worth the experience. I look forward to being so arrested by words like these again.

As far as rambling tangents go, let me just write I wasn't that productive today. I need a lamp so I can read at night.
Listening to more Kanye basically means I'm appreciating Family Business and The Glory more.
There will be two more months, I'm guessing, of adverse weather so I really need to get that dwr wash and wash-in. I must've looked pretty retarded when I slowly repeated what the dude at the register said.
Without a guitar in my hands I seem to be writing more poems, that aren't lyrics. I plan to learn at least one Chet Atkins song, after that other song by that other CGP.
Goran Dragic has been traded to the Miami Heat ... I'm not sure how I feel about this until I see some "amazing."
And do I feel older now that I actually am? Nah, not yet.



Sunday, May 12, 2013

The Foul Sounds of Youth

Sweetness - Jimmy Eat World
Everlong - Foo Fighters
Forever and Ever, Amen - The Drums
Younger Us - Japandroids

There are more songs about youth, but these four mean a lot to me. So I'm writing it down before I forget and get old. My favourite lyrics are as follows:

"If you're listening."
"If everything could ever feel this real forever, if anything could ever be this again."
"And it's forever, baby, it's forever."
"Give me younger us."

Honourable mentions:
Hard To Explain - The Strokes
Fat Lip - Sum 41
Blitzkrieg Bop - The Ramones
We Are Going To Be Friends - The White Stripes
Banquet - Bloc Party
Saria's Song - Koji Kondo

New York, March 1954 by Vivian Maier

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

2012

Oh wow, it's like I totally skipped a year of blogging...however, I did not stop writing.
I had an ambitious project in my twisted head about a city, my own city like Gotham or a Neo-Tokyo to suit my image, or even a large populated town like Malgudi. Determined to make links with characters and stories, I let it marinate; the links and interplay struck more at night than in the day and I had to write it down ASAP (usually in my phone's message drafts or in my handy-dandy-notebook). Who/what was my muse? A mix of boredom, inspiration and the age-old, tried and true, propulsion of turning pain into art.
Some interesting things I found in 2012:
- erratic people are cute
- CityRail can only get slower
- looking for a full-time job is not as easy as uni made it out to be
- getting left out of big events hurts (but I stand by my choice of not having a Facebook, having sold my soul long ago to Google when I created a Gmail account and they started tracking EVERY search term I've ever typed up)
*NB big events is defined as something life-changing, not something petty like a graduation/house party/Friday night out to see a band before they break up, no, more like a book launch or an art exhibit opening...thanks guys...
- feeling inadequate is similar to the expression "beauty is in the eye of the beholder", best to get over it and move on
- being purposefully lost is a great feeling

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Oh and I went to Europe for 2 months, saw snowfall and skied for the first time, gained some muscle weight, spoke bad German confidently, and made my manager so angry at me, I now consider it a lifetime achievement to be still working in the same place as her.

I would love to go to Scandinavia, someday.

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

The Death of MSN Messenger

Thank you for letting me waste those hours, savour those awkward moments of misunderstanding and overall lols. It's not March 15 yet, but I reckon I'll get even more sappy writing something then. MSN taught me so much about interacting online; my favourite is that one's tone of voice can't always be translated to text. Here's to my favourite computer program growing up, not KaZaA/LimeWire, not Winamp, not Minesweeper/Solitaire, but MSN Messenger.


Saturday, November 26, 2011

Long Beach and Hollywood

The final stop in my world trip. I think I only stopped here cuz the travel agent suggestively manipulated me into it "If you're stopping by New York, you will have to go to L.A." At the time I was like "Sure, why not? I have a cousin I could stay with while I'm there." I realise now that it wasnt a mandatory stop over, but it was nice nonetheless. Their outlets are nice, El Polo Loco mixtures of sauces are impossible for me to get get right, and Sam's Club is only a shadow to CostCo and Walmart, but boy how I wish Sydney was that cheap.

HIGHLIGHTS: Seeing my uncle, my cousin and her family and eating a jawbreaker.

I haven't seen my uncle since he stayed with us, in Sydney, since mid 2004 (I think), and the last time my cousin saw my was back in the Philippines, circa early 1990's. Hanging out with them reminded me of how far, geographically, we were situated from each other and how similar we all are. She took me to a Citadel outlet, and I noticed the seemingly endless freeways we had to use to get there. It was a day before "carmageddon", luckily lots of people watched the news and stayed at home. So we got there and I was constantly reminded of how expensive Sydney is.
By the end of the shopping my cousin and her kids had Starbucks while I started on my jawbreaker. It was medium sized and it took over 20 minutes to wear it down. Rule number one when eating a jawbreaker: never bite it unless it's down to the size of a marble. The picture below reminded meof the train that runs through Darling Harbour, so I guess that's why I took a picture of it.




Now why wasn't visiting Hollywood a highlight? Because outside of the perimeter of the Walk of Stars and the Kodak Theatre, it's a hole; cracked pavements are a commonality, broken buildings have shoddy fencing surrounding them, bums roam the streets and there wasn't much else interesting around. Think of cities as nodes, the bigger the node the bigger the city. Hollywood would be a 1 inch node whereas Long Beach would be a 0.5 inch node, in between there's little to do. In New York, however, there was always something to do in between the nodes. From Chinatown to Harlem there would be a lot going on, and I was never bored. But travelling by car from one area to another in L.A. made me sleepy and it wasn't jetlagged; I had no jetlag!


More pictures to come.

Sunday, November 20, 2011

New York

Whoa! New York! My desire to go there was further pushed while I was reading the Dark Tower, by Stephen King. I had no idea how the grid system of streets worked but there was this one line that went something like this: Roland had a feeling any other city in the world would be a step down from New York.
So, why New York? Why the hell not?! The Strokes, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, The Ramones, Jay-Z, Beastie Boys...


HIGHLIGHTS: Shopping in downtown Broadway, going to the Bronx and cheap drinks.


I became a total hypocrite because I was still listening to Refused AFTER my shopping spree. How much of a capitalist pig am I? Well, if I had spent the same amount of money in Sydney, it wouldn't have gotten me as far. Also, the lift to go up to The Impossible Project Space is THE slowest I've ever been on. Gatorade on a hot day at $1.50 USD is awesome...just saying.


The Bronx...wasn't as ghetto as I had pictured it. It reminded me of home and my original ambition to make it big in New York. If I was to live anywhere in New York, it would be in the Bronx. Brooklyn can have all its fancy factory art exhibitions, I'll take the Bronx any day, Harlem on Sunday mornings and maybe the Theatre District for some cheap shows. Not that I went to any performances, but I felt like this is New York. Something larger than you is always being performed and exhibited for the very first time in this theatre or that small museum.


$10 for five shots of ANYTHING. Bam. As a late night Sydney tradition, well at least with some of my mates, you go to McDonalds after you get trashed in a club. The other yuppie tourists who sat on either side of me didn't "get it", but I didn't expect them to and I didn't care, because when apple pies are 55 cents each you can't help but be happy.



Friday, November 18, 2011

Sheffield & London

On the bus, making my way up to Sheffield, I realised that the English are on the imperial system of units and measurements. I tried calculating how long 400 yards are but I'm so used to metric that I gave up and just went to sleep. I met up with my aunty and uncle during dusk...at 9PM. Northern countries get the sun longer during summer, however, the temperature doesn't really go above 16 degrees (Celsius).

HIGHLIGHTS: Seeing my aunty & uncle, Sheffield girls and my London walking route.

Again, these relatives of mine haven't seen me in over 20 years. They knew of me but this was the first time they've ever SEEN me. It was weird at first, but talking about the old country we realised all the things we had in common. And my uncle is the first relative I've met that's been in a legit war and lived. He had several of those old vintage-sepia photos and I could see the excitement all over his face the first time he had ever put on his uniform.



Sheffield girls are fit.


My London walking route was based off of Alan Moore's From Hell. I calculated and triangulated the route using Google Maps which DIDN'T infom me of the dozens of construction sites for the London Underground and an overall redevelopment of specific sections London. Moore said it's frustrating if one does the route by car due to one way roads and that it would take a day (I assumed 4-7 hours) to walk. I walked for about 5 and only reached a third of the destinations. The best part of the route was probably the garden in the middle of the city that I didn't expect to find. During WWII parts of London got bombed and this one church only had one facade that withstood the blasts, but someone had the idea of turning the insides, where the alter and pews used to be, into a garden. In the between the busy business people and other professionals there lies a tranquil garden in London, it's good to know that there's a chilled out place like that there.


Friday, November 4, 2011

Hong Kong & Macau

The best sense to recall memories is one's sense of smell. If I wanted to remind myself of Hong Kong, I would have to close my eyes and imagine smelling the city's thick and polluted air, even all the way up to the Big Buddah. It comes from the mainland factories that produce goods for the rest of the world, I felt like a dirty Capitalist pig letting this happen.

HIGHLIGHTS: Seeing my cousin and aunty, Fairwood and suits.

My cousin hasn't seen me for about six years and my aunty even longer, over nineteen years. If you don't know, citizens of Hong Kong (those who can afford it at least) employ a lot of Filipino maids (male and female). This happens because of the poor lifestyles available back in the Philippines, compared to the somewhat better lifestyle offered in Hong Kong.
My cousin took me to Macua and that place is what I expect Las Vegas to be like...without the sleaze and the one hour ferry ride. The Venetian is one of the largest buildings in the world. We got lost..twice. My aunty shouted me Jollibee. I love my cousin and aunty.



I was told by my friend beforehand to eat at a place with an orange sign. I wander for five minutes away from my hotel and lo and behold: Fairwood. Fairwood is a cheap place to eat. Service: 10/10 Food: 7.5/10. I was really hungry as well, maybe that's why it tasted better the first time I went there, or I was just entertained by their ad that played while I was browing their menu, neither of which I understood but luckily they had pictures next to English numbers I could read. I really recommend going to this fast food place, here's hoping that it's a little bit less evil than McDonalds.



I bought two custom made suits while I was in Hong Kong, they're both awesome. The 24hr suit is not exactly what you think...First you pick out an already made suit and they cut it to your preferred measurements. Luckily I had a friend translate for me. She is awesome, and we both agree that this one girl who rode the train with us was really pretty. Anyway, the second suit I got was more of the traditional fitting and then a second fitting to double check the measurements. It was made from super-fine cotton, wool and silk would have been way over my budget. When I return to Hong Kong, it will be to buy an even more expensive suit, plus some silk shirts, thin ties and a classy bow tie for lols...see my cousin and aunty and eat at Fairwood, in that order.





Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Tokyo

Whoa, I have time to update this blog again! What was up with the hiatus? The two main reasons are: globetrotting & university, yo.

First stop Tokyo! I travelled during Summer, so the weather was hot, nearly 40 degrees celsius kind of hot. The realisation hit me when I was alone in my hotel room - I knew I was in Japanese airspace over 5 hours and I landed in Narita Airport wating to vomit - I'm in Japan...Holy crap! I'm in Japan! I know about 20 words, including numbers, I know how to be relatively polite, aligning with their culture, I'm not feeling nauseaus, I'm not nervous being here by myself and I've got some money to get by with while I'm here.

HIGHLIGHTS: The Pokémon Centre and Yokohama Cosmo World

My friend and I found this place accidentally while walking through the Landmark Plaza heading towards Queen's Square. I felt like I was 10 again. On display, they mainly had the new Pokémon with some of the classics like Pikachu, Mew Charmander, Squirtle and Bulbasaur. But my favourite Pokémon was always Psyduck. So dopey, not exactly slow like Slowpoke, cute, oblivious to almost everything going on and that damn headache! Anyways, this place was awesome, I recommend going if you've ever dreamt of having real Pokémon of your own, or if you ever wanted to become a Pokémon master and travel the world when you turn 10, just like Ash Ketchum...or Red...or Blue.
























I didn't go on any rides, I didn't see bright lights of the Cosmo Clock 21, I didn't eat any of the typical lollies, crêpes, or fairy floss while I was there...instead I went into a haunted house. It sounds lame at first but when it's a weekday, you're in the house by yourself and the rules state that you can't run or hit anything, you will get frightened a lot easier.





Thursday, March 31, 2011

The Impossible Project

Expensive. New Australian distributer. Ouch.
How it worked before: $175 USD with $50 USD PX 70 Color Shade Push! 10 pack shipping to Australia (give or take with the current exchange rate).
How it works now: $333 AUD with $14 AUD shipping all around Australia.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

50 WORD REVIEW: Pink Friday - Nicki Minaj

Her best two songs are subtle (Fly and Blazin). She should learn from it instead being blatant, repetitive and 'typically' hip-hop, Did It On'em, Your Love. Later parts of the album make up for the slack in the beginning. Minaj is catchy, unique-ish and worth a bit of your time.

6.5/10

Thursday, December 16, 2010

My City

It's a blazing afternoon in this sweat-clad habitat of pipes, metal, and concrete, lots of concrete. What I don't understand is the banal recognition of it all and an apathetic amazement towards its wonder, and at its horror. Gaze upon now, all ye mighty, and tremble...

The drunks who wander through and the yuppie that passes by are but mere glimpes of the forms this city is capable of. Unforgiving and yet rewarding. It breathes, yes - it breathes. You can see on top of manholes, when it's cold, and above drainage ditches when it's hot. It hangs in the air and wafts its way, tainting innocence without remorse, to the protected indoor vacinities of the buildings. Sometimes, it can talk - the loud honking of vehicles and snd shouts from angry business people on their mobile phones. The message is unclear, but it's there - just listen. Ahh, the buildings have history, but it's nothing compared to the trees that stand unscathed. The corruption of modernity and post-modernity left them alone in their solace as others were decimated and violated.

The wharf is an achievement. Dock-in and dock-out. It may not seem amazing, at first, but ignore the rubbish and its murky smell. History is what the tourists pay for. It's a steady rhythm of ripples. The deeper you go the more silent it is, and where there is silence a sanctuary can be found. How can this be? You are alone with your thoughts without any distractions. You can view it as being a 'defeaning silence' or you can be introspective and discover things about you, both pleasant and unpleasant.

It's weird how often the traditional values mix with new ideas. So let it be while the young ones stroll by. The women in suits must polish their armour for another tomorrow and be glad for it, because they know what most men don't: decisions are made and should not be clouded with what should have been. It is the now. It is here. This is Sydney. It's my city.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

What can you do when the magic is gone?

The rush filled her with an elation. An excitement never before experienced. Euphoria.

The cold wind outside might have swept away the fear. The drunken waft of the crowd's breath comforted her when the lights dimmed. A change of atmosphere was good. Her capricious mood suited a summer night like this. It warranted a belief in these next few moments to be a defining turning point in her life. Unofficial biographers will study them and say that on a two-bit stage, like this, a legend was made. Carving her way through the business with pure malice and spite, because it's what the machine wants - no, needs. A triumphant voice among the many and hailed as a pioneer for the failures. The failures deserved to be recognised. Without them, the ultimate winners could never be decided.

With delusions of grandeur on her side, she took to the stage.

There was no curtain call or encore. But their claps were loud and even a few stood up. That teacher in that movie got it right: We live because of some things (science/medicine/technology), but we don't always live for them. We live for highs like this.
After the show she gingerly made her way backstage and took off her make-up. She scratched her head while looking at her reflection in the mirror.
'Yeah, I was great tonight,' she thought 'I'm on top of the world, and this is the view millions of others before me aim towards...'

But deep in her heart of hearts she realised with perfect clarity: no. The magic for her would only last as long as others saw her that way.


Buried in one's memories, there are no treasures of the past. Just small, ephemeral and subjective experiences. But just because it's small does not mean it's insignificant. And it's on this basis that some humans put their hopes on. So hold on to it. It's yours and nobody can take it away from you.
When the stringent dominations around you become overwhelming, don't let it go; your hopes, the ones you carry everywhere with you, and the magic that comes along with it.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

PRESENTZ!

A lot of presents/gifts are given during Christmas. Hell, I should know: I work in retail. A gift can be defined as "a thing given" (Australian Oxford Dictionary). But to know what something is, you have to know what it is not. Ahh, dualism; where would humans be without you?







A bit depressing, I know, but hey, know this: Countless others before you have died, facing their mortality, as you and I are currently doing, but it didn't stop them from doing great things.


Once upon a time, there lived an old farmer with two daughters. His wife was a comely lass who was taught to cook well, listen carefully to what men ask of her and never to do anything too stupid. The farmer worked hard at the fields and felt very lucky to have such a wife. His daughters, however, were something else altogether.
The older girl was named Sky. She had an assertive personality and took what she desired.
The younger girl, by four years, was named Gaia. She liked staying grounded and lived the realities of being a poor farm girl.

Sky yearned for more. In her dreams she would be a princess adorned with big bright gems. The banquet hall would all but hush as she moved her presence from one end to the other. As quick as the dream came there would come the nightmare. Her parents would die of a disease there was no cure for, and her little sister would be separated; forced into marraige as any farmer would want for his beloved children, for the younger they are the sweeter they will taste, as they say.

It was Gaia's duty to gather water from the well and Sky's to churn butter and milk the cows. It was monotonous, labour-intensive, but it was all they had to live by. The farmer had to work hard for somebody else just to make ends meet. His own field was small, but he found a way to manage.
A large dowry was agreed upon by a nobleman when he had once passed his small shack, when his daughters were not of age. He got out of his carraige and demanded to speak with him, the owner of the small patch of land five leagues from his own chateau, and several estates under his name.
"So you work for Lieberman? I can't imagine he pays you much."
"He pays me enough, sir. We live by what we need."
"Need," the nobleman scoffed "if we all lived by what we needed then I wouldn't have that carraige, or those pure-bred horse to pull it. What needs are compared to wants are base urges of the savage. Let him have his needs, I say." Then he sighed, as if to get a weight off his shoulders.
"Farmer, I come here today to offer you a deal."
"Sir? Why me?"
"Because you are not related by blood or ancestry to my own. Such strange things we are discovering, it's all the rage that's replacing alchemy, really. Not that you'd understand." He paced back and forth, looked the farmer up and down and measured him for all his worth. What the nobleman was after was integrity. He could barely find it in this simpleton, he thought, but maybe - just maybe...
"Farmer, I can sense you do not like my scrutiny; be truthful, now."
"N-No, sir."
"Your daughters aren't liking it either, but they just can't help themselves being curious. Bring them out to me, they're hiding over there."

The farmer hesitantly brought his daughters to the nobleman. He offered a dowry, it was accepted and the daughters became dutchess of rich estates.

The doctor hurriedly rushed into the room, which was dimly lit by small candles. What he was looking for was not clear, nor to him or anybody else at that time. Some correspondence with other doctors from an hundred wheels away brought him terrible and ineffable news. With symptoms, a diagnosis may arrive, then a treatment and then a cure.
There were no symptoms, save perhaps a little dehydration. There were no other factors that could degrade a person's healthy body that fast. It couldn't be melancholy. It was not due to chemicals. Noblemen and their mistresses only dine on the decadence that's deprived of commoners. Deliverance would not come, as ailments persisted. Rapid heart beat, shallow breathing and...eyes that told the doctor all he needed to know.

The sick patients all had one last visitor in common. He strolled in and took them gently by the hands. To some of them it was obvious. Some had fought in duels before,deadly in their fashion, and knew - they just knew.
"It's time."
It wasn't just a feeling. The smell was what gave it away and when they realised, well, their eyes could just tell you.

"Gaia, how are you?"
"What do you think? You, fool!" She didn't know who she was talking to and she grew more indignant the longer her bedfellow stayed. "It's getting harder to breathe and I'm as weak as a wilting plant."
"You have it easier than others. Some are tortured. Some are struck down in their prime. Others fade away into a forgotten memory."
"What is your point?" Gaia curtly responded.
"My point is that your life is determined by me."
"And who are you?"
"Really? I say, Sky was more of an optimist when I visited her-"
"Wait! You know my sister?"
"I knew her, if that's what you mean."
Gaia did not like being toyed with and demanded of her visitor an immediate explanation.

It was the same sigh that was given to all the stubborn people, believe me, some people just accept.
"I will offer you a gift. It is yours to take. People have died for it. They have sacrificed for it. And will forever inventing ways to forestall it. But one thing people will never do is give it away like a small treat. It is fragile and easy to break. In the end, it is mine to take."
"Do not riddle me!" It cost her effort to say the words with authority. "What gift do you speak of?"
"The gift of death."

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Because Happiness Isn't Always Defined by Endorphins

What if you're a sadist or engage in BDSM? Will you ever actually admit it? Polite table manners say no. The few things not subjective in this world are definite emotions; hate; desire; confusion, etc. So what's my point, really? I've just finished reading Lolita. I liked it. It's similar to The Great Gatsby: it's trying to capture moments in time, of the past (lucky for me, I have several cameras, although I can't live those moments again). Ironically, these enduring characters that try to take the past into the present are going to last for many more lifetimes to come. Why? When they inevitably fail their quests we are struck with a heartbreaking longing.
Is it because we relate? That's partly so.
Maybe it's because these characters are striving for something that the human condition implies but never directly expresses: happiness.

Anybody can say that Humbert Humbert is a sick freak, for loving nymphets. But his happiness is no better than mine if my ultimate goal was to start my own business and become successful. Sure, I might have to stab a few backs to gain corporate deals and whatnot, but hey: it's nothing personal, it's business. Is my happiness more 'honourable' that his? No, I don't see it that way. Honour is just a label. I cause less hurt in my ultimate goal, therefore it is more probable that Humbert Humbert should burn in hell because his happiness violates nymphets. What was my point again?
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Ah, yes. Happiness. Subjective. Elusive as fuck. Nothing more, nothing less. Very short-lived, but very much much worth it...whatever "it" is.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

It's My Decision

We are 'thrown' into the world. It is not of our own choosing, Heidegger says; and I agree. It's the only thing that's ever been 'forced' unto us. Think about it: we have a choice in every single one of our actions. McDonald's or KFC? Coke or Pepsi? The underlying implication here is that choice has always been ours, in the ways we think, act and speak. You chose clothes to wear today, although it might have been for school or business attire that creates a facade of professionalism, and you chose what things you need to face another day.
So, now we move onto freedom of choice. It is like a double-edged sword; hey! look at me! I can do whatever the fuck I want! Haha; but I also know I shouldn't do this or that because someone will get hurt and because society says so. But just because society deems it so, does not make it universal. With all this freedom at our disposal, it's more like a burden, isn't it? Sartre viewed it this was because he was living under German-occupied France; choose one side, the other side or suicide; you have no right to say that the Germans or French nationalists made you do it - it was never their choice: freedom is a heavy weight.





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It's funny though, an idea like freedom isn't a burden until you start to realise it is not measured in pounds or kilos.


Thursday, November 18, 2010

Never Cave In

Meanings cannot be directly interacted with, so argues Derrida. Signifiers always defer meaning or ideas, in the purest sense.
So what's the point of it all? Well, here I am trying to explain, as a middle-ground, the concept of 'différance'. But it is this middle-ground Derrida places différance. Can't we just make meanings as we go along in life or do we have to stick to the rigid constructs of society? Touché, Joker.
"They're only as good as the world allows them to be." The Dark Knight (2008)

In this blog I will try and represent different perspectives of concepts, because meanings have never been set in stone. In the end, these are just going to be my interpretations.




The idea of being an existentialist:
The scenario is a psychiatrist waiting for their patient. The psychiatrist is reading one of the books on the shelf, that was just meant to be for decoration. But whatta-you-know, it's actually useful in this case.
There's a knock at the door, the book is put down on the desk. The patient is here.

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Patient: Look, I just think I don't fit in as well. That's why I have these problems. I'm small, insignificant. If I were to die tomorrow nobody would give a damn.
Psychiatrist: That's just being overly pessimistic. Focus on the good things you have. You have your health, you're not living in poverty and as much as you don't like your job, it's paying a lot more than the average wage earner.
Patient: Yeah, so what? What does it matter? I'm not important.
Psychiatrist: So you say. But being small doesn't equate to being insignificant. Life, as we know it, is fragile and ephemeral. But it doesn't make it any less meaningful, unimportant or insignificant.
Patient: ...I guess.
Psychiatrist: OK, let's try some mind-over-matter. As an exercise, I want you to repeat to yourself three times a day, for at least a minute "I am small, but significant and I will never cave in."

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The patient gently closes the door and the psychiatrist breathes deeply a few times.
The book is picked up and placed back into its niche. Only two more patients to go, thinks the psychiatrist. It's been so long, the habit has been accustomed to the psychiatrist's breath, and it's repeated for over a minute, closer to two.
"I am small, but significant and I will never cave in."

Good Morning

It is 7:05AM in Sydney, Australia, and I am writing a blog post. This post is fine, it's the widgets I need to add that's the trouble i.e. RSS feeds, links, AdSense, Twitter, etc.


"If everything could ever feel this real forever.
If anything could ever be this good again..." Everlong - Foo Fighters